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As I Look Back

Sometimes I have the opportunity to sit silently and look back over my life to see just how far I've come as a person. I’m always in awe of how extremely gracious and merciful God has been to me, even in the midst of my foolishness. I hadn’t always been the person I am today and I didn't always strive to make the best decisions, especially with so many things and people seeking to distract me from my destiny. Honestly, I can say that to some extent, I walked through life carelessly and took many things and people for granted. Listen, I was a mess and the things I pulled back then and the choices I made before truly knowing Christ left me with an uncertain future but He had a plan. I thank God that He looked upon me and saved me the way he did, when he did. I thank God for the change of heart and the continuous shaping of me as His child, as a woman of God and now as a mother to a beautiful little girl. 


Never in a million years did I think my life would be changed and that I would be entrusted with another life. To be honest I didn’t desire it or think I was capable of it. The beauty of it is that you never know what you’re capable of until it’s done and you never know what you need until you have it. I'm just thankful and grateful that He chose me and this beautifully chaotic journey of motherhood to help me be more gracious with myself, others and to love more deeply, as I patiently nurture my child and raise her in the way she should go. Even with my imperfections, I have the opportunity to break generational curses and be the change I wish to see in the world. To impart wisdom, be compassionate and extend the same grace and mercy that was extended to me. In Jeremiah 29:11 the Lord declares, "For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future," and that's exactly what He did. My ways and thoughts definitely weren't His ways and thoughts but I'm here now blogging about it and I'm glad about it. When I sit and think about my life I can't help but to get excited about my future, her future, our future. I'm truly thankful, grateful and blessed!

 

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. - Jeremiah 29:11

 

Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it. Proverbs 22:6


“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah‬ ‭55‬:‭8‬-‭9‬ ‭


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